bare thoughts at 4am

It’s 4:30am right now, the only day I am awake this early because I woke up from my late afternoon nap at midnight. I couldn’t sleep since then… and being here now, writing in the peace and silence of dawn is motivating me to recalibrate my body clock. There is a different kind of energy at this time… quiet hope and a clearer mind. I have been more of a night owl these past months working on the business late into the night and it hasn’t been the best for my wellness in general.

It’s now June. I cannot believe how time flew so fast. And also how much I have been able to accomplish with my business. I feel “accomplished” because I just launched the other half of it: my products, especially the bared book. Basically, because I stayed true to my vision and didn’t give up on myself. It was hard to see the finish line, having started late and fighting all the internal and external battles that happened between now and then. But I did it! With even more products than I intended haha. I am so nervous about the outcome, but I try to focus on the person I’ve become and the lessons I’ve learned because of it.

I say all this to say… I’m not actually quite sure what I want to say. I do know that I want to show up here more authentically. And while I already am in some ways, I still have been masking parts of myself by “over performing” as my coach put it. I am always overthinking and over asking ChatGPT, out of fear not being smart or worthy enough. It has led me to feeling a bit tired, disconnected, and held back with my brand when its very essence is to reveal the opposite.

And so with this blog post, I begin to trust myself and my voice again. And just like that, I’m inspired to make small shifts in my life this next season. Some are returns to positive habits I’ve put on pause…like journaling. (I’m editing this to say that I felt so much better after releasing all this so it really works wonders). Others are about expanding my mind and leading with wonder. I’m so hopeful and excited for this next season. It’s feeling brighter already. Summer energy, I’m ready for you.

I’m looking forward to writing about how it goes (and everything else bare living) more often now, with this newfound liberation hehe.

Till then, let’s continue to live in pursuit of a more intentional life :)